Deep End

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Deep End is set at the end of the ’60s in a decidedly unglamorous and unswinging London (though actually filmed, very persuasively, in Hamburg), Skolimowski’s pleasingly skewed variation on the coming-of-age sex comedy posits a bizarre, totally unsentimental education for its adolescent protagonist.

The somewhat naïve school-leaver Mike takes a job at the local swimming baths, where he becomes obsessed with an attractive young woman, Susan, who works there as an attendant. Although Susan has a fiancé, Mike does his best to sabotage the relationship, to the extent of stalking both her and her fiancé. Mike becomes increasingly desperate to have Susan for himself, with tragic results.

Often very funny, and blessed with pounding Can numbers on the soundtrack, it’s an original and offbeat delight whose mix of eccentricity and gentle social satire have ensured its enduring status as a cult movie. It’s good to have it back in this new digital restoration.

Help me change my name? <3

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Hey! It has almost been a year (dang) since I “came out” as trans. It was something I definitely wouldn’t have seen coming just a few years ago even though looking back it’s seems silly that I didn’t know long ago.

I was worried about how people around me would react and while the process wasn’t always easy I never regretted it for a second because I’m feeling a lot more like myself now.

Some of you amazing people helped me with an aspect of the whole ordeal that I would have never been able to handle otherwise by supporting me with donations towards paying for some of the things that come with transitioning.

I can actually afford voice training now and I can pay for some medical stuff. And getting some clothes that help with passing isn’t something I have to put off forever anymore.

One thing that turned out to be a lot more expensive than I anticipated (and not covered by insurance) is officially changing my first name. It would mean the world to be able to say “Hey, I’m Emilie” and not worry about the inevitable awkward moments that happen when that name doesn’t match my ID card, official documents or just the name on my mailbox.

I know I’m the worst because I come back to you again for help but if you like what I do and have some change you won’t miss… it would go a long way!

You can donate here <3

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Troye Sivan was terrified of being gay before he came out

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Troye Sivan recently shared a story many queer kids can relate to: Being afraid of who they are or who they may become. In a an interview, Troye reflected on his latest album, Bloom, which featured tracks that highlight how queer people come into their sense of self. As a result, he said that while he never set out to become a gay pop star, he has noticed a change in who listens to his music.

“I was thinking, this is an interesting shift,” he saidnoting a recent influx of older gay fans, in addition to his already young following. “But it’s never been something I’ve strived for. I’m just grateful that people care.”

The realization wasn’t only impactful for what Troye describes as his “day job” but also something that resonated deeply given his own identity.

“Growing up in a society where I didn’t want to be gay for the first 15 years of my life, I was terrified of it. That’s still in there and I’m personally trying to work it out.”

There’s a push-and-pull that’s oftentimes present in the experience of coming into one’s sense of self as a queer person, even after coming out to those closest to you and — in Troye’s case — his entire fanbase and the greater public. That’s a topic he explores in his music, even while he continues to personally develop as an artist.

“Although I came out as gay to my family, there was still a lot I hid: the way I wanted to move, dress, speak. I’m enjoying this process of pushing myself, figuring out: Am I into this? Am I not? There are no rules.”

Coming out, or even inviting others in to your life, isn’t always easy and can be fraught for anyone, regardless of celebrity. Exploring your identity is a personal process, and when the public is paying attention to your every move, it may be harder to feel as though there’s enough space to do so.  But Troye does what he can to balance and make sense of it all.

“As long as people are asking about it, it means there’s still hunger for that conversation. I’m in a pretty privileged place. I live in West Hollywood, where everyone is gay, and I’ve got supportive family and friends. For me to be sick of talking about a subject that for other people is still so real and has an impact on their daily lives … I kind of think it’s the least I can do.”

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